Yeah, I have need for prayer. I am angry. I feel like my relationship with God is going sour. My feeling anymore concerning a relationship with God is: 'what relationship?' I have been fighting emotional, financial, physical, spiritual and psychological battles stemming from past abuse. I feel let down and hurt by my church on top of that because I feel like I am not normal enough for them to want to spend time with anymore or talk to like they used to...and I feel replaced by them. I am angry at myself for screwing all my friendships up and I am walking away from my church and the people who once used to be my friends but are too busy to anymore. I am on the verge of total loss of any relationship I ever had with God. I don't want to hate him for this. My relationship with God is so messed up. My relationship with others is so messed up. My emotions are so messed up. It isnt any fun to live like this and have everyone not like you or steer clear of you because of it.