Please pray for me to have the strength to handle all of the losses in my life. To want to be here. My best friend Jeanie took her life the other day. i just found out. She lived in Florida and I in California. we wanted to be in at least the same town or to live together. My father died last year and I still love him so. My aunt died and my dear friend Patrick is in a coma. My friend Shery has been put in a convalescent home and her life is in danger. My daughters do not want me in their lives. Surely there is some light and joy still in this place. I pray to find it. I do (as everyone does) the best I can within my own limited reality at the time. Thank you for reading this.