I'm totally lost!!! I thought I can get over my past relationship but in fact I'm just repeating or walking inside the circle, never walk out from it. Can god give me a direction or guide me how and what should I do to get over this? I knew he will never give me a chance for getting back together, deep down I knew I should forget him and start over my own new life but I don't know why I can't... Many times, I tried but always failed myself. I hate myself so much. Jealously make me become so ugly. Please god, tell me what should I do??? Can anyone give me some advices?