My father in heaven .... I was forced to quit bc of your love I accept and nothing is greater....... Now I know people think my ideas to spread the wealth to help is so wrong but this is truly whom I am! I am the movies out it seems my life is no secret and I'm fine with that! I know you were the reason all these years I could do for my family and to help giving my all with what you allowed me too. However , I can't burden my retired parents with my leaving my job .. I have been there for 18 years and was shunned to even speak of you ! I can't be in a place and you say do to others as I want done to me and my time there was up! I know you only understand , my mom and dad understand but feel overwhelmed and I can't have them upset as for 20 years I did it all alone financially as you only know. Now they want me to get legal advise and I think your all I need for my work situation and I need to feed my kids , have addy and Zoey know you as the other children were able to do so. ..... Zoey has stomach issues , I think the rare diagnosis of pfapa and my parents are so tired ...... I am scared to re marry as I'm not on the same page spiritually with Donald and his mom still shunned me and I feel all I need is you now..... My parents haven't had to help financially ever for me and not there job !

I know the children need me , ministries I have no money saved up and cannot even think to open multiple chains and homes for the older folks to help my parents as they always have been my rocks !

My brother needs me and I know I have a purpose but I am stuck with nothing while the loyal dedication my bosses by giving birth coming back 3 days after for both girls no vacation but thurs n fri once a year and still do with my kids and make sure all they want to do was done by your helpers ...

I just can't do things alone with assuming all debt from all my " friends" giving over 20 vehicles to help people and only you now make me smile....

So I am placing my life to you only ..... And trusting in you. I'm just scared ....,

Thank you father and I wait on you as I speak to you every second I need to talk as I don't want to hear anyone yell and say I'm going bonkers I needed to leave there ....

Guide me I am all yours .... In your name I pray ....

Amen