Please pray with our father in heaven in heaven as I know arguing in front of my children in a bible study bc I have questions and want clarity to know Our father in heaven . A time bomb cannot lead a bible study as I ask for good bible studies that I am able to attend in my area. While my children are in the family bible study each Saturday and am glad we do it but if my 8 year old asks she's hushed by my ex and her siblings are on their fathers side and I do not agree we shouldn't ask questions. Also , it is always ok to get monetary things from me but I have no say or bring up my 17 year old to attend a Christian College and dad saying well you can't just say Christian College or obeying thy mother as far as the way since my ex has been home he leads my son whom used to hug me daily now bc I don't want dad back bc I sense something is not right ( addiction or what my father in heaven opening my eyes to be more careful n cautious) .....

We all got so close to each other now it seems bc I won't allow him to reside in my home and do according to Gods word and have him place blame for not wanting to jump from fire to fire and have a new best friend named Jesus and be so happy to have him that I'm at fault .....

I cannot after leaving my employment for 18 years and providing for my family alone with the father not contributing financially and me handing out money I now do not have and should be focusing on the family and my children long story

So please pray I make it out and regain my strength and will be used no more bc Jesus knows me and has been with me but now deeper in a relationship with him I need him only and keep my faith ....,,

God is so good to me and I am thankful for that alone. ..... Pray for my ex anger and that he breaks whatever he us doing to have rage etc. .....

Pray for all people hurting but for my strength as with Jesus I know he knows my situation. I am praying to stay strong through this as it is extremely hard and my kids keep me happy Nd at peace along with Jesus and my father and mother on earth ....

I just pray I won't always be last as it's kind of hurtful ..... I place the world before me and am I don't want to feel the prisoner feeling. .... Jesus holds me daily ..... I'm going to be ok. ....

Xoxo

Thanks for the prayers and I will pray to my father in heaven tonight as I always do xo

God bless

Pray as I know standing up for our god is making my family attack me for they think after 18 years bc I quit I'm losing my mind. Please reach for my son and let him know his mom is fine and stronger then ever and through Jesus and faith I am fine. I think bc they are used to me going so fast , sad a lot and now I finally have faith stand tall and love the world I am lost and losing my mind .... I'm perfectly fine and pray my ex removes from his downing my every spoken word bc I don't need to worry about his circumstances I can not worry . All my happiness with my family is going away bc I once again have no say in my calling to go study bible etc

I can't deal with negative anymore I want to be a child of god .... I'm made new and hate my son to hurt to be led like this ..... Everything I say seems to not matter it's weighing on me so please pray

I pray also for my children , my nephew to not be shown hate as we have all loved him
But we can't be around addiction and have offered our hand to church and to live a more holy life but he wanted no parts and is being led by evil spirits. .... Pray for everyone else who hurts and needs healing as I do more now then ever .... I want to show the woworld to love and maybe actually write my book of life bc it wasn't easy but why take you out of schools. ? Who needs medicine if they have you. ? Being absent without Jesus is why we all hurt so much it's just to much evil in this world. ....... I'm proof. .... Had I had you in me not going through a motion is a huge difference. ;) I love you just to be your child and for the parents you gave me is a blessing and they deserve no hurt and no stress

My father in heaven .... I was forced to quit bc of your love I accept and nothing is greater....... Now I know people think my ideas to spread the wealth to help is so wrong but this is truly whom I am! I am the movies out it seems my life is no secret and I'm fine with that! I know you were the reason all these years I could do for my family and to help giving my all with what you allowed me too. However , I can't burden my retired parents with my leaving my job .. I have been there for 18 years and was shunned to even speak of you ! I can't be in a place and you say do to others as I want done to me and my time there was up! I know you only understand , my mom and dad understand but feel overwhelmed and I can't have them upset as for 20 years I did it all alone financially as you only know. Now they want me to get legal advise and I think your all I need for my work situation and I need to feed my kids , have addy and Zoey know you as the other children were able to do so. ..... Zoey has stomach issues , I think the rare diagnosis of pfapa and my parents are so tired ...... I am scared to re marry as I'm not on the same page spiritually with Donald and his mom still shunned me and I feel all I need is you now..... My parents haven't had to help financially ever for me and not there job !

I know the children need me , ministries I have no money saved up and cannot even think to open multiple chains and homes for the older folks to help my parents as they always have been my rocks !

My brother needs me and I know I have a purpose but I am stuck with nothing while the loyal dedication my bosses by giving birth coming back 3 days after for both girls no vacation but thurs n fri once a year and still do with my kids and make sure all they want to do was done by your helpers ...

I just can't do things alone with assuming all debt from all my " friends" giving over 20 vehicles to help people and only you now make me smile....

So I am placing my life to you only ..... And trusting in you. I'm just scared ....,

Thank you father and I wait on you as I speak to you every second I need to talk as I don't want to hear anyone yell and say I'm going bonkers I needed to leave there ....

Guide me I am all yours .... In your name I pray ....

Amen