I have an astounding continuous hatred anger disappointment sadness regret towards my ex boyfriend. He played games for nearly 6 years. Lies broken promises and cheating along with being alcoholic plagued him. I can not and in times will not forgive all the drama. He constantly tested us. I am completely angry. I have left him but now whenever he wants to interact all I can do is call him names and belittle his ability to be a person. I need serious help that I know only God can give me. I need to stop being mean. Not in forgiveness but just to move along in life and forget the pain. Amen