I ask this prayer request for myself and first I must admit I feel selfish for asking for anyone to pray for me when so many other are suffering and hurting and more deserving of prayer, I truly do. I write this out of desperation. I am so sad, scared, confused, depressed, anxious, fatigued. I feel physically and emotionally useless, destroyed, devastated with all kinds of ailments and guilt, etc...! I need so very much help and I don't have any money and no way to get the help. I only have 4 teeth left and my gums are severely infected and doctors have been telling me for years now that I may die anyway if the infection goes to my heart but I can not afford it and have seek help all to no avail. Medicare and Medicaid can not help me for I have both but no help and no money. I don't want to die but I am not living either. My son died in Sept., of suicide and I feel so much guilt and rightfully so. My children's dad died Christmas morn in 08 and my dad died 2 yrs. ago. I have lost close friends, too many lately and another from suicide. My life is sitting home not being able to do much of anything except just lay on the sofa with no energy and in constant pain... physically and emotionally. I don't understand why God is not helping me. I pray all the time. I try to be a good person. I am sure I can do more yet having such little energy prevents me from doing it. I feel like my mind is slipping away. I pray for help but I need so much where do I start and how?? Most of all thanks for letting me write this!