It is early in the morning and once again I am awake unable to sleep and sad and crying for all the pain I am feeling and can not make better. I love God our Father above all else and I need to to help me. I don't even know what help I truly need except to have this pain in my heart, mind and body to go away. There is so much that I can not even untangle it all. I know others have it much much worse than I do and I pray they too find God's help! Why can this world be loving and carrying? Why can people truly care and help one another? So many why's. I sit here and look at my son's ashes and think most of all why did he have to hurt so bad that he could no longer stay here and it hurts even more! I wanted so much to help him and if I had the money like some than I could have given it to him and helped him so much. I can not even take care of myself but I would have taken care of him first and did and yet it was not enough. Maybe this infection in my mouth is making me feel worse. I only have 4 partial teeth left up top and none down on the bottom and still do not have the money to fix them. Thank You for allowing me to talk and I pray God will help me with these problems and give me the answers I seek for whatever they may be. May God bless us all and keep us in His loving arms always and forever, Amen.
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Our Father in Heaven and all who can hear me, please take away all this pain and suffering from me and help me live in some type of good life. Let me find the means to get the finances to get my dental work done and heal my body and mind. Father you know I am hurting real bad and in Jesus name I pray please help me! I am holding on yet my physical and mental state is getting worse...

I ask this prayer request for myself and first I must admit I feel selfish for asking for anyone to pray for me when so many other are suffering and hurting and more deserving of prayer, I truly do. I write this out of desperation. I am so sad, scared, confused, depressed, anxious, fatigued. I feel physically and emotionally useless, destroyed, devastated with all kinds of ailments and guilt, etc...! I need so very much help and I don't have any money and no way to get the help. I only have 4 teeth left and my gums are severely infected and doctors have been telling me for years now that I may die anyway if the infection goes to my heart but I can not afford it and have seek help all to no avail. Medicare and Medicaid can not help me for I have both but no help and no money. I don't want to die but I am not living either. My son died in Sept., of suicide and I feel so much guilt and rightfully so. My children's dad died Christmas morn in 08 and my dad died 2 yrs. ago. I have lost close friends, too many lately and another from suicide. My life is sitting home not being able to do much of anything except just lay on the sofa with no energy and in constant pain... physically and emotionally. I don't understand why God is not helping me. I pray all the time. I try to be a good person. I am sure I can do more yet having such little energy prevents me from doing it. I feel like my mind is slipping away. I pray for help but I need so much where do I start and how?? Most of all thanks for letting me write this!

I am needing prayers. I have been very depressed and feeling very alone for a long time. I am in need of dental work for I have a severe infection and the doctors tell me if it goes to my heart that I will probably die. I don't have the money they want to have it fixed. I have been living the past many years by just getting by and it's not working anymore and I don't know what to do. I don't know how much or how long I can continue this way of living. I don't even wish to write anymore...

Please pray for my son who is severely depressed and is very alone and in isolation where he lives. I am so afraid for him and being a mother I am sure most who are can understand that it is very painful to feel so helpless when your child is hurting so much.

I have a hard time asking for others to pray for me yet I suppose I ask here now that someone will. I have many health issues and I am growing weaker. The doctors are still trying to decide all my ailments and what treatments are best for all of them. I know and believe that if I had the finances to get my dental surgery that I would feel much better and will be able to help myself more and be healthier for now I only have a few teeth left and they are badly infected. I know that dentures are not necessary but the surgery is and I pray that soon I can have a way to pay for the surgery and start healing some of my body. I know there are many others things that need addressing yet this would be a start. I am not old yet my body seems to be. I ask that God help me and show me what He wants me to do. I pray that I can live a long life and spend it doing whatever is God wish. Thank You all and God Bless each and everyone!

I have a dear friend Mary who has been diagnosed with cancer. The pathologist made a mistake and said her biopsy was benign but it was malignant. It has now spread to her lymph nodes and still the doctors are deciding, for about a month now, what they will do for her. It saddens me greatly God that people would treat this wonderful woman with less respect and care than she so rightly deserves. She is a very beautiful and loving soul and my heart hurts desperately for her. I pray God that you heal Mary and let her live the remaining years in peace and happiness with her long time husband of so many years! Bless her and save her from this horrible disease! I pray for her often and she is so brave and she is in pain and I pray God that you take the pain away too and heal for body! Please God give her direction and comfort and show her the You are there for her. I know she knows You well Lord and please show her that you are helping her and guide her through this horrible ordeal! Bless her in your name Jesus I pray!

I am going to have some heart surgery this Tuesday, May 28th, and although I have had this one before, it has made me think long and hard about my life and this in turn has made me very sad. I never thought I would share this with others and I must say this is very difficult for me yet I guess I am going to just get it out.
I have 5 siblings, lost my Dad , 5-27-3012 and my mom is still with us, and I have two children and one grandchild and many of nieces and nephews but I really do not have all of them. I barely speak nor know any of them but 2, who do try to keep in touch. Oh they say they care and they love me yet in my heart I know this is not so for if they did they would show it and include me in their lives but they don't. They make excuses and truly I don't blame or hate anyone... it just is! I am blessed to have a wonderful man, who is my partner and best friend for over 18 years now, and we have a very special blessed love. I am just sad that I thought I had all those others, especially the ones I gave birth to and yet I don't and I feel they were taken from me and only God can understand this and know for the truth has been buried so far under that they are no longer able to feel it or see it.
My formal husband of over 17 years, and the father of my two children, is also gone since, 12-25-2008, and he was only 49 yrs. old, and I love and miss him too. He died alone and should not have and even these people who left him to die take no responsibility for their roles in his loneliness. They believe they were good to him and that they love him as much as he deserved. Again, the truth is with God for only He knows now...
Now I come to today. I spend a lot of time on the internet and mostly Facebook for I find friends who I feel truly love and care about me. The ones who say they love me... they say my Facebook friends are not real and I don't know them but I feel I know their hearts and they show me they love and care for me. I must remember to trust my instinct and to trust in God and feel His love for I will never feel this loneliness again...
I pray to feel loved, respected and cared for by others. I feel a great need to show others how much they mean to me and that I do truly love and care about them! I pray for peace and to be whole. I pray to begin to live here as God wants me to live for now I just exist!
Please pray that my surgery goes well and that I will again get strength to live happy and have and know love of others...
Thank You!