I pray for restoration and to be in the right place place at the right time. For God to capture my every negative thought and discard it! to put an end to what I can only describe as weirdness/sickness amongst my family and friends, which seems to have resulted in an unexplained mental illness and unnecessary pain/confusion. To put a guard on my mouth and guide my every word. To rid the defiance I believe guided by guilt and shame at the unnecessary events that have incurred in my life, resulting in such pain and sheer terror at times! I wish I could I could be more specific. Yet it seems the more I try the more damage it does. I truly believe I was meant to meet my life partner/ husband many years ago! from the moment I was born I (maybe like many others I don't know, I personally wanted to marry only once! but I knew I wanted to work, marry settle with my family and be amongst the Church., take after my familY et although there have been aspects of that! and we finally met the damage it has caused seems to keep snowballing out of control! I can see where I should be, almost touch it! yet I don't know how to make it right FEAR,SHAME, GRIEF let go of me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Restore my love, life, and family.