Ask for for family restoration and restoration of my relationship with my boyfriend of 4 years. Also for guidance in my life. I can't hear or feel God guiding me. I feel abandoned. I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown. ( I have recently been prescribed xanax and I do not want to be on them forever ). All I want to do is cry and I'm so confused in what the right thing to do is. I know in all this confusion I have made mistakes but I'm having a hard time feeling guilt because of the situation.