sometimes you shift your attention from god, your eyes were covered. you forgot about how lucky you are to have god with you in your hard time, you forgot about how he gives you ability and courage to run to the battlefield and conquered your enemy. you immediately get angry when he afflicted pain on you. but you never humbled your heart and to listen your heart, what he wants you to understand from those pain and suffering because you never be conscious of your behaviors, you dunno you actually did sth that god does not like and appreciate, until the moment you suffered, you challenge the love of god and his ability. lord, please forgive daughter once again let you down, thanks for letting me know what i have done wrong, thanks for putting conscience in our heart, lord please teach how to love others like you do, please teach me how to love myself like you do, please tel me how to love you like you do to us, please give me wisdom and patience to wait for you. please bless all my family member, friends, and all beloved ones and also bless all who are now suffering at all corners of the world. amen.