Here I'm again, God! How funny I was just checking some older messages... Not feeling asleep but feeling it is missing what I really need! As I heard today ... I really need to feel your love in my heart , so maybe I could be, a little better from who I am know. I still looking for some love happiness in my life ... What should I do? When I think I've found someone... Things just turn it down and it seems like .. Not really! I'm on the same stage I was a year ago in these therms.. The only difference is that , now, I know it is for someone who's at least worther... Is it? Please Guide me my Lord! And calm down my anxiety and my feelings... I need to rest, work, and try to keep my life on the track! You are the only one who can help me now"! Love, Ellen