It's been a very long time since I've felt hope in my life. After the death of both my beloved Oma and my father (and with a long stretch of circumstantial adversity), I feel utterly drained and have ceased finding enjoyment in my life.

I care for my disabled brother and we barely have enough food to eat, can barely pay the bills. We have no hot water.

I am tired but not just physically so. I am emotionally tired. Spiritually tired. I want to go Home.