It's been a very long time since I've felt hope in my life. After the death of both my beloved Oma and my father (and with a long stretch of circumstantial adversity), I feel utterly drained and have ceased finding enjoyment in my life.

I care for my disabled brother and we barely have enough food to eat, can barely pay the bills. We have no hot water.

I am tired but not just physically so. I am emotionally tired. Spiritually tired. I want to go Home.

Please, help me heal from the loss of my father. Help me understand WHY he had to go Home... Why after all the prayers and everything I did, did he have to go? I still needed him in my life and You knew that... Why?

I did as much as I could and I still feel like I failed him. Help my heart know peace. Help me to understand that the body is merely a vessel and the cancer did not win. Help me know that he lives on somehow.

God, I miss him so very much.

My father was just diagnosed with a mass on his brain. Pray for healing for him please. I'm trying to stay strong but we will need an army to face this.

I love my father and I'm fighting for him with everything I am. As a friend and as his daughter.

Keep us strong as we face this and give us the ability to overcome.

Thank you.