Tonyt am puting down my armor and shield with tears in my hearts and a broken spirit.it was a lost battle after all the efforts.Im asking u my friends in faith to pray for me strenght to stand up after this heartbreaking downfall.Im asking for courage and wisdom to discern the purpose of evrything.Im fervently praying that in the fastest time I can understand the purpose of all these trials:(..Im crying for a dream that was lost but more tears for my family for i know i had break their hopes:(...i hate the feeling knowing that no matter how i pretend that im ok they cry for me silently...