God once again its all my fault. I know why because of sin. I really think that I'm in trouble with you. Some people dont have any idea. I feel like im really in deep troubled waters and that you could be angry. After repenting years ago. I went back to old ways. I let lust control me, overeating, have an eating disorder, vanity, idolatry, selfishness, jealousy,crazy thoughts, unforgiveness sometimes, and holding back flood me. Sometimes I'm really scared and sometimes I think im not good enough and worthy. I;m still addicted to worldly music and certain addictions in which you told me to give up. I really feel like im a bad person. I can admit I lost fellowship with you. I always feel alone for the past couple of years and im confused. I can admit I haven't given up everything to follow you. I know certain things are hard. Maybe I'm fooling myself.I worry about whole lot that it actually stresses me out and its heavy weight. I also worry bout my family or if they are going to make it in heaven I probably know why which makes sense.This walk is hard which I feel like im barely walking with you or havent even at all. Jesus please help me.