I cannot bear the pain that I carry in my heart anymore. I cry every day for the past 2 years. I thought it was my job, my relationships, my family, etc.. but I'm thinking it's me. I can't seem to be happy with any situation. I feel I have been deceiving myself all my life!

I was sexually abused a number of times in my life starting when I was 3. I see a counselor regularly for years. It's helpful, yet I cannot seem to find peace. I even asked for depression meds, after being totally dead set against them. I purchased the prescription, but decided not to take them after all.

I am a divorced mother of 6 and I am a special education teacher helping many children who are struggling in life. Sometimes deep down I feel that they have it more together than me.

As you can probably tell, I have a very low self esteem. Many people tell me that I should not think low of myself for I have a lot to be thankful/proud.

I would like to ask you to pray for me for positive self-esteem and self-love. Also, for God to bring me the partner that He sees fit before I lose anymore hope!