Today is a day of lacking for me even as I know the feelings are a trick fro the devil. Sometimes it's hard to be positive, encouraged and empowered when you alone all the time. I do not expect or desire praise from any individual; however, as a family, aren't we supposed to lift one another up, celebrate and encourage each other? The hardest part of my journey is living with people who have no aspirations, no goals no desires and has even less desire to share in your accomplishments, happiness etc. There is never an "I'm proud of you or you did good; never a time arises when they even want to celebrate you, family or friendship. in fact, the only time they want to spend time is when it's something they want to do. Most days it's not a problem, but today is one of those day when it matters to me, it makes me feel lonely and isolated in a corner and no one is checking for me. I know God's plan is to deliver me from this state in due time and I know the feelings i feel are not adequate because I am never alone; my Papa is always with me. It is not my desire to complain or to seem ungrateful of God's provision for me life. I love Him and trust Him with everything that I am. All my hope is in Him. It's just....it would be nice (and thank you for Papa for deliverance and making a way) if there were people in my life who were checking for me, celebrating me, encouraging me.