I would like God to reveal to me if my theories in my heart about being tested and taught discretion are true. I would like peace for my confusion. And to apologize for being so selfish and impatient. I will put forth a effort at patience. Thank you god for last night I think I get a little of what you were trying to form in me. Patience. Humility. And trusting you to see me through the fear and the long hours. I was super whiney like I get when I get uncomfortable, the same guy who preaches to find comfort in uncomfortablility to grow. Thank you god for seeing me through. I am still a little confused about my laughter at the end. I need your insight God. In some ways it was good. But in some it wasn't loving. Help me understand please and help me overcome all of the impurity and confusion. Thanks love you. In Jesus name amen