I am struggling with anticipation of i dont even know what. I guess things i want. I am trying to hold on I am trying to expect. I am ready to bust. I know its coming. All of it. I expect it, I believe it. I just dont know how to be still and wait calmly. God can you please help your son, not my way Father you know what will satisfy me. I put it in your hands. This is how I am struggling. I have sought. I have knocked. You say relax now and it will come. I need help to relax Dad. Please Help.