I am at a place where I have to dig in and wait. This is difficult for me. God is able. God is willing. My faith falters. My patience runs thin. Its a battle within. How do I do better than i am. The mystery. The desire. Its all overwhelming. It's a storm. How do i enjoy the journey. How do i enjoy the uncomfortable. How do i enjoy not having what I think i need. The truth is maybe I am not able to care for what I want or appreciate it. But that doesn't change the fact I want it. Just random thoughts guys. Pray for me if you will. This desire inside me is overwhelming at times. I dont know how to put it to death.