Prayer Request
Feeling sad and discouraged. I know God is who he says he is. But maybe my beliefs were off. I might have gotten my hopes up for some grandiose things out of place. Everything I thought I knew, everything I wanted to be true about MY reality with God. I wanted the life of one of the old testament heroes, I didnt want their hardships. I thought I received a word confirming some things I wanted. Now I dont know what is true anymore I am all mixed up. I thought faith and belief had effect over reality, now I dont know. I thought I was protected, now I question that. I thought i received word harvest was coming, now I feel like it was false hope. I just keep getting these messages God knows your struggle, God cares, dont grow weary in doing good. And everyone seems to prosper and i feel forgotten. My attitude is poor and I am trying to hold on. But I just dont know anymore. I want to expect the blessing to expect the favor to expect good things but now i fear getting my hopes up to get let down any more.
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Imagine if you wake up tomorrow with only the things you thanked God for today. In the life of the world there are so many challenges, comparisons, tests, temptations but if you focus your relationship with God mainly on the things he has given you already and life starts to be more calm despite the storm your reality faces. You are on vacation, you’re able to buy a car, you have the awareness and thoughtfulness to think of him, you see so many of his children he blesses, it’s a matter of perspective. Sometimes I simply realize my ability to walk, drive, see, it’s really the simplest things. Anyone can say why me....but focus on ur heart and really feel overwhelming joy because despite how forgotten you may feel, God is poking somewhere in ur heart for a reason. He hasn’t forgotten about you at all. His timing for you is for a reason beyond your imagination. Faith. I’m only explaining from my personal struggles with this btw. There many yes’s you have. Don’t neglect the simplest ones. Try this out...🙏🏽☺️Also your awareness in ur attitude/perspective is something you should take pride in for acknowledging.
Also thank you for taking the time to write to me, it means a lot.
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Thanks. I can see much better in hindsight. My perspective and attitude was that of a spoiled child. I'm not suggesting it's much better today but I have let go of alot. I know and I under stand God's timing a little better now. I was ungrateful because I one blessing didn't show up yet. But I know now how immature I was, I wasn't ready for the thing I desired. I would have damaged us both and I wanted it more than God. I wasn't ready at all. I still do not think I am.
I can receive your message much better today and I am about to embark on a journey to face some things i have run from and avoided for nearly twenty years so the timing was great.
I can relate to how you feel Sam. I'm trying to hold on to promises as well as an instruction and dream God gave to me many years ago that has yet to come to pass. It hasn't been easy holding on and not giving up. Thoughts of depression and even suicide crept in at one point. But I stood steadfast regardless as the Holy Spirit renewed my inner strength to keep me from not throwing in the towel. I know it's hard but try to press on. I believe God will reward our faithfulness, obedience, sacrifice and stewardship when the time is right for Him to do so.
thanks. I am trying. Maybe the whole point is for me to let go of these ideas.