Prayer Request
I ask for guidance and help with this depression I been feeling. I've never had thoughts since 2017 of wanting to die but I find now 7m after my daughter was born 3yrs after my son I feel those thoughts coming back and I can't help these feelings like just wanting to give up, like no matter how hard I try I'm not getting anywhere. I get so angry at my toddler it's not normal I need help and all the prayers of understanding of how to nuture his high energy into something positive m I'm having the hardest time being a single mom on single income ppl constantly asking to borrow money and I believe it's for their own addictions. I finally put my foot down after half a year. I feel like I'm getting nowhere and nothing but a boob to my kids. I'm tired and upset often I never get a break. It's my birthday tomorrow and I don't want anything, I feel I don't deserve anything nice. I've never had anything nice growing up even as a young adult my toxic bf had all the nice things and now my toddler just ruins everything he touches so what's the point of having anything nice done for me or anything. I give and I give and I get nothing but stress and tourmoil. I need an outlet for this grief losing my sister bestfriend and ending a 11yr relation all at once was never easy. Life has been nothing b up to a struggle and I'm beginning to hate myself especially for these to houghts. My babies are my pride and joys.
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I certainly do understand how you may be feeling, Samantha. If you are in a safe area to get out ad take a ten minute walk, that will give you a few minutes to have a few minutes to get fresh air and allow your toddler to run some of that energy off, going to the library to look for books for both of you will be a down time treat. Calling the mental helplines will definitely guide you to get you settled with exercises for you to decompose. I am 12 days behind reading this but I pray the Lord has responded to your cry and help has come. Issues like this He isn't slow in getting to you to get you help. May the prayers you cry out to Him are heard and they are quickly resolved. May your peace be restored and forever lasting from this point on. No weapon formed against you shall prosper and God did not give us the spirit of fear, but of peace, joy and a sound mind. You are more than a conqueror and resisting the devil and calling on Jesus you have victory in all of your matters. If you would Samantha, read and speak those words everyday in Psalm 91. Doing so, you have put a hedge of protection around you, your child, your home. The book of Psalms is a great book of prayers too. These are Gods Words, give them to Him and He will surely respond. It is my hope that you are doing better. To God be the glory, Through Christ Jesus...Amen
Hello. Please listen to Joyce Meyer. You can listen for free on YouTube. You can order her CD's/books. It's just pay what you can. So if you can pay $1.00 to listen to her teachings they will send you the CD's. She was abused as a child, and overcame this. As far as people borrowing money, is it for the Glory of God? If not, then say no. In saying no, you are saying yes to your kids. Raising a family is for the glory of God. God loves you. Don't listen to negative thoughts that tell you you don't deserve anything. You deserve to have joy in your life. When my son was little, I put anything that was special that he could break away. Maybe try putting things you don't want broken away. You say your babies are your pride and joy so I know you have love in your heart. You can do this. God loves you and your kids...
First of all, Samantha you need to seek help right now! Go to your doctor or urgent care. Let them get you the help you need. From your request it sounds like you are a young mom, at the end of her rope. Probably postpartum depression. Before you do something to your babies or yourself , please seek help NOW! I will be keeping you in prayer.
Thank you all for the prayers they worked. I felt better after writing this got up on my birthday the next day and thought I'd brush myself off do it for not only for me but for my kids. My birthday is never easy. Since my arrival I almost died and almost killed my mom. The thoughts went away, after talking in a talking circle and praying and praying. I don't like these feelings but I'm trying everyday. I've been thru so much hurt it's hard to erase or let it go to God I build up these emotions and get angry for nothing. I think I need to bless my home as so many ppl come and gone from this place I feel the bad energy.
Again thank you all for the prayers and kind words I believe they've worked wonders and continue to work wonders.
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Samantha - May hope continue to rise in you; may His peace abide with you; may your joy be boundless, rooted in Him; and may your roots go deep into the soil of His marvelous love. Amen.
Deeply encouraged by your testimony. It is well!
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Praying for you to draw strength and courage from our LordJesus Christ.
Be patient with yourself and your children. It will get better . Donβt give up. Trust Jesus and His love to see you through your difficult time. Also praying for the Lord Jesus to send someone to help you .
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Prayers for strength and guidance, keep ur faith, every thing seems harder, especially when someone u love passes away β€ and ending toxic relationships, if u don't go to church, u should find one,u can atleast have a break from the children, in church nursery, so u can give it all to God, b Blessed πβ€
Praying for you to find Peace π. The Peace only God can bring π