Thank you for your prayers. I pray hard and pour my heart and soul out to God. But sometimes I feel he doesn't hear me any more. Sometimes this is more than I can bear. I know without Gods mercy I can not bear it much longer. I know this because I know my thoughts and I believe that one day I will not be able to continue fighting it. My heart is being ripped out of me and my mind will not shut up and let me think clearly. i can not eat I can not sleep. I beg God daily to end my life or give me peace. I love God and I know there are people with worse trials and I pray for them but I'm not sure God will answer. I'm not sure anymore that my prayers will help anyone. Even though I try to believe God hears me when I cry out to him. I don't understand why he will not help me. so, I need all the prayers I can get because I am alone and afraid.