I ask for forgiveness because I’m I’ve done some things and I’ve been doing a lot more and I’ve realized that my foster mother was just jealous over nothing and that I was single for 3 years to prove myself that I could become a better person and be just as strong for nick but I cannot live like this being alone ok I can open up just as much and be the best I can and it’s always be supportive and everything and I just wanna be the mature one and actually tell my story properly and raise awareness of how people can be evil and have the devil etc and I always question myself on so much that I sometimes beat myself up over it but I do take responsibility of my actions and my sister death because I didn’t catch it in time