Jesus, I'm sorry I'm a Failure to you and all around me. I always do right by other's and it's never good enough. Everyone has left me. Only time I hear from children or anyone is when I have money to give. Now that money is gone, I'm back to being invisible, barely getting by caring for my grandsons who live with me full-time. I feel so stupid. Why would I be this stupid again. I am so tired of crying and feeling pain all the time. Writing this I'm now in tears. I'm praying for a financial blessing in order to travel within the US for one year. A time to disconnect from all who have done me wrong, a time for healing, a time of learning. A time to show my grandsons your not limited by your surroundings. A time to find joy and happiness once more in life. Jesus please don't dismiss me as others have.