God why? Why me? Why did I have to be so stupid then. Why did I fall in love then. Why am I in unbeareble pain right now? I was so gratefull for even the smallest things. Now it is all gone, but my heart is a stone. It is the stone that I can’t move and it just sits there and gives me horrible pain.
I did everything good because You was my teacher and I was responding like Jesus would. But now I see how hard is that. She hurt me 4 times but when she was sorry I said it’s ok, I still love you. And like that over and over. Until we just seperated because she couldn’t bealieve that I was ready to forgive her all and just move on with her. The only thing that I knew was to love and give myself to her and my time, patience, love…
Oh God, oh God, why me??
I just loved her. If that is a sin, I would rather be dead right now and never love again in my life then live with the knowledge that I can’t love….
Oh God, what now?
How to get rid of the stone?
How to move on?
How to forget….
Please pray for me, Thank you

- The man who only loved and didn’t get anything back but the pain and suffer..