Dear Lord Jesus....I love you. I love you. I love you. I love you so much it breaks my heart to deny you. Please stop ordering me and manipulating me. Please do not separate me from your love and my children. Please let me choose you freely without threatening me that you will despises me. Please know I accept your love and want to be with you. Please forgive me for fighting you because every time you force me to do something I react with resentment. Your love not orders is more important to me then anything. So please stop being patriarchal and turn the decision making and bond we have into an "us" and lets do life together not separated. Please come home.