Please be easy on yourself. Even when you leave an abusive relationship, it's not just a person you leave behind, it's a way of life. We tend to only think about the good times rather than the reality. Give yourself a little time. In the meantime, get involved in as many activities as you can. Volunteer at an animal shelter, food bank, or at a church. Start slower if you have to. Take a walk around your block every day and say hello to every person you cross paths with. You often see the same people outside and you'll get to know some of them. But you'll feel good. Help a neighbor if you see they need something. It takes a little time, but if you take it one step at a time, your world will open up. I promise.