my husband passed away 18 months ago i have made a lot of poor choices since then , i want the strenght to get my life half way back its not for me its for my children and do always do hat right it seems that i react to my own needs and wants i am lonely but yet i have a house full my children need me and i want to be a good mother i just keep placing everyones needs above whats right, i still dont feel any ways close to being the person i was the main thing is i have given up at a time when my kids need me the most i want ot be able to laugh with them but its very hard i dont want to be so selfish anymore please give me strenght where its needed