Dear God my beloved father. I am struggling with so much in my soul. I have become something I have despised. I pray for your forgiveness. I pray that you may lead me in the right direction. I pray for peace and direction. I want to be everything you want me to be...I pray for strength, acceptance and most of all love. I pray for a job, money to pay my bills, I thank you father for all the gifts in my life. I know you are with me at all times. I may not seem like I am listening, but I am... In Jesus name amen