Here's your sign. I was in a situation like yours and I did it. I really did NOT think I could do it. It took me two years, but I did it and I am so happy now. I am smiling and laughing and living life now. You are NOT a failure. Take one step at a time. Make a plan and write down all the things that need to be done. Check things off as you get them done. You can do it. You GOT THIS!! Sending prayers and thoughts of a happy future your way.