I seriously believe that I my life is to only struggle , not ever find happiness, and for every day to be terrible. Every day I wake up and PRAY that I have a good day and that GOD guides me to where he wants me, and EVERY DAY is complete chaos. Family wise, marriage wise , financially, home life. Its never ending. I cannot see any light in my life. Nothing seems to work out for me. its so very sad and I dont know what else to do. I cant keep going on faking things are good for me .....

Please keep us in your prayers... My mom and dad died with in 2 days of each other. Since then I've tried to keep it together .. She always prayed for me , my sister, brother , children, our entire family.. i pray all the time, talk to GOD to the point I think he would just like me to be quiet! I feel like I have no one, and I have gotten us into a massive legal situation.. We are trying to get out of it. I've never told any one this.... I feel stupid and terrible that this happened. We need GODs grace and for him to breathe in our direction . I try to be a blessing to others, everyday i pray that very prayer that I may make someones day..I try to keep my faith up upon him and focus on his words. I pray that all on here and their problems come to pass and that God is working in your life and he has a plan for all of us. Amen .

I feel like I don't matter. I know I matter to GOD and at he is here with me. I just feel empty, wrong , invisible, worthless and just sad. Like everthing I do is wrong. I have made a mess of certain things in my life. The daily struggle to get through the day is wearing me down. I want to find a way that I wake feeling happy. Its been SO long since I have felt happy I cant even remember the feeling actually. I try to be a good mom, wife, person friend. I think I am. I take care of people and love them all. I ask the some how I feel whole again. I surrender all my burdens to the Lord and ask that I somehow my heart begins to feel alive again.