Big hugs and prayers for you and yours. I've been in your situation as well before, and God helped me into a different direction, although, at the time I didn't know that was the path I was SUPPOSED to take. Stress, anxiety and loss plagued me. I wish I should have laid it in God's hands like I should have, I would have been relieved of most all of the negative! But here I am, my children and I, happy as clams several years later. My situation cleared up for me not long after I bottomed out. I pray for what you ask, as well as guidance onto the path you follow. God bless!