My mother is 86 years old, I am the only living child left out of 4. She has dememtia and has suffered three small strokes. She has been placed in a nursing facility per the doctors advise due to having to have 24 hr care. She nor I, can afford private care. She HATES this home, cries for me to bring her home and tells me that she is going to die if I do not get her out. ALL doctors say she needs to be here. This is a gut wretching experience. I HATE leaving her there, feel like such a disappoint to her and myself. I need peace, she needs peace more so. Please pray for her that God will heal her heart, body, and mind. She has experienced so much lose in her lifetime. A 7 year old to a drunk driver in '57. My dad died suddenly of cancer, my sister struck and killed also by a car. And her first born son killed in an automobile accident. I know we are not to question these things, I won't lie I have. WHY is my mother having to endure all of this. She has been a good mother, person, and Christian. I pray that God will give me some understanding of all this. I have become so bitter through all of this, too. I question my own salvation right now. Am I a backslider? Please pray that God will heal my mother or take her home to a glorious heaven where there will be no more pain and suffering for her. She is ready to meet Christ. I love her so much but hate seeing her suffer. Could see her go on home easier, I think. Please pray for her and my rotten ole soul right now.