God is always good and He knows what is best. I can relate to your situation and I am sorry you are there. I can tell you that God wants you to be happy and no matter how much you wish for your bf to step up, he will only do it if he wants to. My advise is to accept God's help for you to be independent and care for you and your children. I truly believe you will be so much better off. God led me out of a horrible situation and even though it was scary, it was so much better in the end. Bless you.