Dear God I miss Vanessa and Andrew and Sheila with all my heart. I need them in my life because without my love vanessa and the kids I am just lost . Vanessa is on my mind all day long . I do not want anyone else or care for your idea to drink me better . Vanessa is my everything. She is my life and my world . Lord you once brought her to me after my dad passed away . I needed her then but need her even more today . My life has been on hold . I am lost and hurt without my heart and soul and Vanessa Pauline East is my heart and soul . Please bring my family home

Dear God I think I am going crazy . I can not get Vanessa Pauline East off my mnd she there when I wake up , on my mind most of the along with the kids Andrew and Sheila. there the last thing on my mind when I go to sleep. She is in my dreams . I feel her crying . I hear about her acting so fake . I see how controlled she is . Just wish she can see how much I cared . Wish she could see what my worth was to her and kids . I wish the kids cared enough to tell her . I miss my family and Vanessa. My life just put on hold . Not sure where to go . I feel as though I am dying slowly alone and broken lost .please help me God .

I miss Vanessa and Andrew and Sheila with all my heart. They are my life . Please lord help restore my family

Lord it been 9 months since vanessa left me . But lord she is on my mind first thing in the morning and last thing at light but she is always on my mind . I miss her and the kids please God bring back my family.

Lord I feel broken . I lost all that mattered . I love Vanessa with my whole heart . I was able to be a dad for the first time in my life they were my world . You brought them to me I just want to be there the whole time to watch those two kids grow into better adults then me . I just want whst my dad had . My heart is broken . My mind is lost . I don't know who I am with out them . My will to go on is gone . I sit aND ask you to take me . You took Ramona and Robert 5 years ago . Now vanessa and Andrew and Sheila. My dad . I am alone . Never had anyone tell ramona. I ask vanessa to marry me and that was the path . I went to work and there gone . Camp life . Gone for weeks at a time . I am hurting help me God

Almighty father it been 7 long months since Vanessa left not a day has gone by where my heart is broken. I love her and Andrew and Sheila with all I am . I know I am suppose be happy I am alive but I just exist. Since vanessa left . I feel as I lose more of life each day . As if I am waiting to die . Because I already am dead inside. I lost my life and world when vanessa and kids left . My friends tell me your bring me better but so far I have hated every woman that you brought to talk to me this far even insult them . I am lost without my family and my wife vanessa. I feel as if you don't want me happy any more . I sure have trouble believing that your helpping me or hurting me . I feel dead inside and only waiting on my death . I am lost with out vanessa . I need Jesus help , your help to father to return my life and Vanessa and Andrew and Sheila back into my life .

Dear Jesus walk into my life heal my hesrt and soul and my mind . Please also heal vanessa's heart and soul and her mind . Lord you say to ask for what I want . So Lord I am asking you to help me and vanessa to open up to each other and talk about our hears and remind each of us about our worth to each other .lord the last 3 years were the happiest I have ever been . You brought vanessa into my life for a reason. We were both broken . Now we are broken please Jesus help us find the love for each other . Lord she is my life and those kids are my world . I am lost without them . Please we need your help back to each othet.

I am asking Jesus to come in to my life heal my heart and soul . And to heal vanessa heart and soul . Give her the strength to for give me as she is the love of my life and I deserve to be happy with with whom I pick to be my heat and soul . I miss Andrew and Sheila with all of my heart and soul . They bring me life . Please Jesus bring back my family

Dear Jesus I am asking for your help.
I have lost all that matters in my life . Va nessa and Andrew and Sheila. I so angry at vanessa for leaving me and very hurt my heart feels like it been torn out . I don't see a future with out them . I need you help Jesus to heal my heart and take away the anger within my soul . Please help vanessa to find it in her heart to forgive me . And please remind her why we first got together. I love her and the kids with all my heart and am so lost with out them . Lord I feel as if I am dying losing myself and everything. I feel so alone . Please help

Dear God I am asking for your help
I love vanessa with my whole heart. But instead of showing her love . I go to hurt her I am still angry with her for leaving in July . We start getting close then I get mad again and keep telling her how hurt I am then cut her down . Then everywhere I go or do I am reminded of her or see her name . She is the first thing on my mind and last thing there before bed. My heart hurts . My mind won't stop . And I have felt like I only exist since she left . Lost her and her kids and my job and seems like I keep losing where my life was . I feel so lost . And I miss my family. Vanessa and Andrew and Sheila. please God I asking for your help for vanessa to forgive me and to give me another chance . My heart is so hurt.