I've just been diagnosed with Sjogren's Syndrome. And I also have Rheumatoid Arthritis and Fibromyalgia. It's tough. I'm praying that I can get most of them into remission so that I can move on with my life.

I've been struggling with my PTSD. It's been an issue. I've been feeling emotionally numb... And last night I did something self destructive to myself. I want to stop these things. I am seeing someone for help. And i am on medication. I just need to move forward from my past. I want to be free.

Thanks so much...

I just met a man... He has been acting strangly. But i really like him though... And he likes me too. I just pray that his strange behavior is just him falling in love with me and not the red flags of a deepr or more serious problem...

I just want to this to work out :)

Pray for me to reach my goals. I want to become a spokesperson for Fibromyalgia, Lupus, CFS/M.E, Scleroderma, Bipolar Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and Dissociative Identity Disorder. I want to be a spokesperson for Fibromyalgia and Lupus because I have it, CFS/M.E because my sister has it, Scleroderma because my friend has it, Bipolar disorder because I have it, Schizoaffective disorder because my friend has it, BPD because my best friend has it, and DID because my best friend has it. Pray that I reach this goal and help raise awareness.

Pray for my friend Cherlyn who is still fighting Fibromyalgia, Lupus and Degenerative Disk Disorder. Pray for my friend Angela who is also bravely fighting Fibromyalgia. Pray for my friend Shelley who may have Borderline Personality Disorder and who is having a time controlling it. Pray for me, who is having a hard time controlling my Bipolar Disorder due to getting used to the new medicines. I'm not dangerous. I'm not suicidal. Just feel unbalanced and I want it to stop. So pray for me. Pray that I overcome this hurdle, and that I do well in my classes, and achieve my goal of becoming a translator :) Thank you for your kindness.

Pray for my friend Milda who is doing better since she got out of the shelter. But I want things to stay well for her because she deserves it :) She's going to be going to school to be a counselor next year, let's hope she makes it!!!!! =D

I need to know that I will beat my illnesses...Lupus...Fibromyalgia...PTSD...and other anxiety disorders... And I also feel embarassed about this part but I want to find love :) I think I deserve it after all I have been through.

Thank you God for blessing me with such a great friend and sister as Eva :) I would never trade her for anyone in the world :) I pray that we stay friends for a long time. I pray that sucess comes to her and her endeavors :)

Ok, so things are getting better. Thank you for the prayers. I woke up today to a kind text from one of my best friends :)

I cancelled my physical therapy so I don't have to worry about it making me too tired for me to keep up with my schoolwork. It was supposed to be helping me but instead it was hurting me. And my Rheumatologist suggested that. I hate to say this, but he didn't know what he was talking about when he suggested that I go to physical therapy.

I finally came to a revelation this morning... it wasn't my scoliosis that was causing me pain. It was my spine. My spine was injured in some way. I don't know how i knew this. I guess God sent me the message in some way or something. I know...I sound weird now lol.

But I knew that the physical therapy was just going to make the fatigue worse. I was going to have to seek medicatio for the spinal pain and find a chiropractor. My Rheumatologist was wrong. I know I'm not a doctor and I never went to medical school...but I know my body and I have to trust my intuition.

So I made an appointment with my primary care next week.

Thanks for all the prayers. You guys are the best.

Dear God.... I really need you now. Times are getting tough for me. I need your help. My Lupus is rearing it's ugly head but my Rheumatlogist doesn't see it. Sometimes I feel like he will never see it. sometimes I feel like everything i say is invisible to this man.

Today something both terrified and insulted me. I told him about my fatigue. He didn't do anything about it, other than send me to my psychiatrist to talk about meds. I was so insulted that he didn't care about me enough to want to help me. This fatigue is really hurting me.

Then the memory and confusion was worse. He told me to go to the ER if it continued or got worse. I wanted to cry. I knew confusion and weakness were not good signs. But they could be nothing. I am praying that they are nothing. I am under so much turmoil at this point in time.

Please don't put more on me than I can bear. Please help my rheumatologist help me. And please...let my story be told.

In your name...amen.