My name is Kelly and I am a recovering addict who has made ALOT of bad decisions in my life. I am living with my husband who is a deputy sheriff in our county, and I thought he would be the one to save me...after a few relapses and countless other problems between our marriage (not which are of all my fault) I have recently filed for a divorce. The courts have granted me primary custody of our almost three year old son (I also have two beautiful daughters from a previous marriage, whom live with my parents). I have NEVER forgiven myself for my mistakes and I'm just asking that someone pray with and for me to overcome this, so that I can be the best mom for my son during these trying times. I'm trying to save up money that I receive in child-support to find an affordable apartment for my son and I. I DO NOT want to fall back on my old ways and lose my son as well. I believe in my heart it all starts with self-forgiveness, but I just don't know how. Thank you!