Abba, my lord. I humbly ask to seek your face, that you would place your mighty hand over me. I come to you seeking for your love, abundance in grace and mercy on me Lord, PLEASE PRAY that our Lord will hear and receive my prayers of supplication for I have seemed to have lost my way in my walk with the lord with in the last year to present. I fear the Lord, and fear for myself and my salvation, I had know Idea why or how I had lost sight, and sometimes I feel nothing. Almost as if the lords presence was gone from me. I was filled with the holy ghost 2 years ago and was actively attending the church, praising and worshiping the lord. I was very sensitive to the Lords presence, to the point that I knew it was the spirit of God flowing through me. My character was in the process of becoming developed in the Lord since after my baptismal and was filled with his spirit. I enjoyed my fellowships i had in others, my joining the choir. I knew I was freed from the enemies bondage, and from the bondage's of the ways of the world. I had been hurt by someone who was broken with many issues and problems including bondage's in his heart, but even so I had compassion and had loved this person. Then I had become brokenhearted, angry and bitter with disappointment over him because I had hope in them to do right by me and I tried to help him find you. Some how I lost my way then and have know Idea how to get back to us in our relationship, my Lord. Through out my rebellions I have sinned very greatly against you my Lord. I know you can read inside of our hearts. Please read mine, and know that I still love you and I miss you, I know you've never forsaken me or anyone of us. I just miss feeling your warmth and love and comfort I miss your presence, please embrace me like the prodigal son, and let me come back to you and please receive me I want you to have lordship in my life, I want to be yours forever. Everything that has happened in my life and in the world was not your fault, because you are GOD and you are good, you died for the world so you can buy us back from Satan. I repent for placing anything or anybody before you, Lord Jesus I repent for all of my youthful lusts that you know about In jesus name, I pray that its not too late for me to be with you again. I am tired of running back and forth, being either a saint or a sinner! I'm guilty because I knew better, but at the same time I couldn't understand why you love me and what my purpose is here. Or why you spoke me into existence. I couldn't understand how to draw the line from your way vs the worlds way. My Lord you know that I feel so ashamed that I am beginning to not like who i am. I'm afraid of your judgement and of disappointing you and the people who do care for me, If I dare fail another test. I feel like I can't come to you sometimes, or to my church or brothers & sisters. Because of my sins, I feel naked and embarrassed I don't even know my place here. I would like to extend an prayer for others out there that you will continue to hold them close to you, that even those who don't know you, that you will make yourself know to them. So even they can understand that you are the savior and that there is no other way out except for you, you are all we should hope for! Lord please I ask you to forgive me and to take away my burdens and shame to have the strength to face you with my guilt's and faults because your the only one who can give me deliverance and can save me. Please heal me and clean me, Please allow me to come to you, Lord Jesus I am knocking at your door, please open the door so i can come back home. In Jesus name. I love you Jesus.