A few months ago, I lost my job, but I kept myself busy for my doctorate degree. I never really appreciated myself (since I was young). I used to label myself as, "ugly, irritable and negative," although, in order to balance things out, I worked hard on my studies.
I kept complaining about what I had experienced until one day I met a man whom I appreciated and loved. I thought he was the one for me, however, one day that wonderful relationship ended. I felt devastated as twice as before--firstly I lost a job, secondly--I lost someone I cared for. I kept on whining and was asking why did these things happen? I searched for answers and stopped thinking negatively. I decided to maintain my composure in the midst of trouble, & in the midst of loneliness. I learned to pray harder and forgive the people who have done me wrong. Being loving, forgiving and happy most of the time were not easy tasks for me. Although I told myself that I needed to be strong and resilient on the things that I put effort with, I should strive to be contented and convince myself that God has better plans for me. Consequently, I tried not to complain much, I also tried to smile and be cheerful as much I can. I worked twice as I did before (studying) to at least make me feel better. Then things slowly changed, I received the good news-- I will be soon working again. I got better grades in my studies (because it got so low due to the situation). What I have learned is, " I should smile in the midst of despair, reflect---on what caused the problem and pray hard for God's guidance. I agree on what many philosophers have mentioned from time to time, " We become based on what we think about."