Hello Tonya, please hold on. We have all been there, the feeling of failure. And it never goes away when we are not able to reach our goal. I could not remember verses but I do post this on my computer. “Be still for know I am God.”

I am sorry for your loss. May God give you the strength in this trying time, I know you will survive but healing is a long and painful process. The more you love someone the more painful it is and the "missing her" would feel like forever.

Lord, please be here for this people who needs You.