I have not been walking in the spirit and it has led me astray for seems to be about 13 years. I believe in his word and trust in it, but the flesh is such a great battle. I feel like I have lost the battle for me and my family. We all need healing very much, so many loses and so many fights. I am ashamed of myself and a disapointment to my family that trusted in me. I just want change and victory with the ability to stay in the spirit and put my flesh away. I want to WIN this battle and not take pride in myself that I did it, only God. Thank you Lord for looking out for me when I turn away and do stupid things, thank you for your mercy and grace and love even when I am distant you wait on me. I would like to be an inspiration to my family instead of a burden. I just would like to ask to renew a fresh spirit within me with passion that will make this flesh and evil spirits run away. Thank you.