For a year now I have been taking care of my Mom had a stroke and became paralyzed from the waist down and from her left arm. I had always told he as I was growing up that I would take care of her, so when this happen I could not see her going to a nursing home. Without talking it over with my husband I made the decision of taken here in (It's not like any one else in the family bothered to volunteer either} Anyway, I gave up my job, I gave up my life to take care of my Mom. I never thought stopped to consider how difficult this would be and how overwhelming it would be emotionally, physically and mentally. The stroke has really taken over her...I feed her, I bathe her, I change her diapers. I dress her and I take her to follow up appointment. Lately my mom has been acting up, her depression is getting the best of her and its weighing on me! I am sooo stressed! There are days where I am stressed myself. I hate my life. I feel like I regret taking her in. I'm angry and I pick fights with my husband. I don't mind taking care of her, shes my mother and I dont want to feel the way I do at times. I'm just so tired. I miss my life. I ask God to guide me, to give me the patience and the strength to keep my promise to her of taking care of her. I ask God to please give me the air I need to breath because sometime I feel like I am suffocating. Please pray for me that I find the peace to do this beautiful thing my heart is asking me to do but my mind is so tired to keep doing it. I need all the prayers I can get, please!! Pray for me and my mother. :(
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