You need to find something that is positive to feed your soul. Is it helping others who are like you or worse off in life? I don't know. Volunteer - find something fulfilling to feel the holes until they close. Meals on Wheels needs volunteers. Reach out. Help others and in doing this service you help yourself.

You can Sam. You can because your soul and your will is stronger than any pain. God is with you and you will persevere with the strength inside you. I'm praying for you Sam.