I've been feeling down, unappreciated and unloved these past few years. I am an only child, my mom has passed away so my father lives with us with my husband. My father was jobless ever since I was born (that;s what I know). He is only dependent with my mother. My mom took all obligations for our household and for my education. I love my father but I am really affected by his selfish attitude. He always asking for his selfish needs. When he was younger, all he do is drink, gamble, womanizing. He is always out with his friends while my mother is out working for the family. Although I must admit he's been a good father to me but not a good husband to my mother. ! year after my mother died, he continued his lifestyle which affects me emotionally and mentally. There are times that he even said things to me that made me cry and feel so alone. Now that he is sick, he still stubborn sometimes. I just feel that all my efforts in taking care of him have been taken for granted. He even compete with my husband for my attention. my husband do the same. They compete with my attention. they are both eating me up. I am getting weak. I know I should understand, keep on taking care of them. But I'm so tired that I cannot do my thing anymore. I even prioritize all their needs financially but sometimes, the thought of being taken for granted eats me up. Now I have a gambling problem that I do not like and it really make me sad because I cannot avoid it anymore. My finances are suffering already. Please pray for me. I know God wants me to keep on understanding people around me. I am just having a hard time dealing with negative and unappreciative people. I feel so weak. I do not want to be on this situation. I feel like evil is conquering my whole being. I feel I am being abused and tortured verbally. I am afraid about my future....Please, please help me get through this. I want to go back to GOD just like before. I need strength to straighten my life and I am praying for my father and husband, I hope God will touch their hearts too. I don't want to gamble anymore. I don't like to feel bitter about life anymore. I miss my mama very much. I always wish her to be here still. btw, I am childless due to twice ectopic pregnancies. Please pray to heal my heart and soul, have peace of mind, focus on my goals in life and continue to help people in need. I've been struggling for so long now. Please, please pray for me, for my husband and father. They are all I have. I want to forgive them, I want to forgive myself and start all over again,but for no reason I can't do it. Please help me. Please pray for me.