I don't know how to deal with what I'm feeling. you would think I would be over it completely sense it's been 11 years. I lost trust in my husband back then. But I made the choice to stick with it. But sometimes I just feel sick inside over it. I need to know what I should do. So i need prayers to help me get through it all some how. I love God more than anything. And Jesus is my Rock!!! So I don't understand why I allow this to keep coming back into my soul???