Please god look out for all my loved one's and please help me stick to my guns, please I am tired of hurting!!!

I pray that the victim's from Boston Marathon keep strong and also their families. God bless the ones who did not make it!
I need this anxiety to be lifted from me, my heart over works and I get paralyzed with a fear and don't know why?
I miss my husband James Martin Kusser who has passed and also my deceased boyfriend who was murdered........ I love you guys and you are greatly missed!!
I pray my 19 yr. old son finds himself and that the anger he has is lifted.
Prayers to my family and loved one's also the troops and the world.