I am going through the hardest time of my life at moment. mentally, physically and spiritually. I am in great need of help. I feel god has abandoned me due to my sins i know he hasn't but the devil is winning. I am so weak i cannot even pray! even though that's all i want to do! I need god in my life! i want god in my life! i have been a persistent sinner knowingly and have not tried to change my ways> I feel i have been punished and its still happening. I need god to forgive me, to help me, to protect me from evil. To protect me from the evil of my own soul! and desires> i am weak! Please pray for me as i feel so down all the time! God willing i get through this hard time in my life, i am 30 this year but have the mind of a child right now> i don't know what happened to me but i know the devil is winning> please pray for me! that i get through this!