Dear Friend, I pray for peace in your heart and strength to get through your terrible loss. My husband of 61 years passed away just four weeks ago, and so much of me has left with him. Yet, somehow God has been sustaining me each day and I know I can trust Him to be with me until the day when I see my beloved again in Heaven. I can tell you without a doubt, the Lord is the only One Who is able to help with your pain and loss. I know He can and I know He will. Take a Bible and begin reading it. It will comfort you when you can't concentrate. Crying is a good thing and is an outlet the Lord has given us in times of despair. After a while, though, it will be a good thing to try and stop (only a little at a time as you are able). My prayers are with you and believe me, I can pray with understanding.

Aleana, dear, I see that you DO believe in God because you were speaking with Him at the end of your note and because the fragile birth of a hope and faith in Him can be heard throughout. Talk with Him, tell Him of your fears and your deep need to learn to trust Him. What would help you the most right now is to hear from others who know that He is very real due to their own real experiences with Him. Believe that He is there, Aleana, waiting for you to speak with Him and wanting to help you. Just put everything else out of your mind and talk to Him. Do it right now. I am praying for you, your brother and your mother. Bless you all.